The "fat" friend

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Before I start this post let me tell you that I'm a very sensitive person. It's part of my nature. I analyze everything way too much and I take everything way to personal. That said, let me talk about the 'fat' friend.

Fat floats on top. I wish.

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 Seeing how it's summer, let's talk about one of my favorite childhood traumas .... Swimming.

Kids can be cruel. Oh how cruel they can be. Growing up overweight, like so many other kids, I got hit by that realization again and again. The words they said, the things they did ... both left deep emotional scars. Scars so deep they still hurt today. After all it’s not easy to shake of things you’ve heard for at least 13 years.

When you’re a bully you don’t realize what you do to someone. When you’re a kid you don’t realize what it can do to your victims permanently. You just don‘t think about it. Why should you? You had a laugh. And surely forgot about it by the time your puberty ended. But the person you hurt may still hurt ... decades after.

There’s one incident like that in my life which is a good example.

Hey, I'm Anna, I'm fat, nice to meet you.

I've had a private blog for a couple of years. I still have it, to be exact, but I've kinda stopped posting some time ago. I guess it's because when you're unemployed - which I was a year ago - there's just not much you can write about. And when you finally got a job, there's little you can write about as well. At least when your blog is a kind of digital diary. I loved every moment I spend in my blog community and whenever I post I feel like I finally got something off my chest. But this blog here is supposed to be different. It's supposed to be about one topic. Namely: Being a big woman. So first let me tell you something about my life and how my weight developed.

Well hello there.

I'm not entirely sure what I'm doing here. There must be thousands of blogs by or about overweight people. So why should I create a new one? Well, I guess it's simple: I want to share. I want to share my story, my thoughts. Maybe to show healthy people what might be going on in a overweight persons mind, maybe to show other overweight people they're not alone. Cause frankly: I feel alone. Most of my friends are thin. Some of them very very VERY thin. I don't say I'm surrounded by models, sure I have friends with weight problems. But I'm the only one who has to buy her clothes in special stores or at least the XXL section.

I'll use the next post to introduce myself. I'm pretty sure no one will be around to read it yet, but I'll keep on posting.

Untill then: Take care.

Just That Fat Girl